Self-consious

Parece que faz um tempo queeu não escrevo aqui... parece que faz um tempo que eu não escrevo at all.
Talvez seja porque para se escrever, é preciso que se conheça e eu não me conheço.
É horrível chegar em um momento e pensar: "E agora? o que eu to fazendo da minha vida? Tá certo? Que isso significa?É tudo uma mentira?...
E essas perguntas não têm saido da minha cabeça. Tá difícil, ta confuso... ta frio.
Queria me encontrar, ou encontrar o caminho pra me achar no final, queria saber se as coisas são certas antes mesmo de eu fazê-las...
Queria uma verdade dessa voz que sai de mim mesmo.

LOST

Lost in a world that scares me to death,
Lost in a crowd, I'm losing my breath.
Lost as a boy, lost as a man,
I need to grow up, I don't think I can.

Lost as a person, can't find my way.
Lost in life, everyday.
Lost in worry, who am I?
All my life, I've lived a lie.

Lost to kindness, lost to love,
Lost in sky, like anew-born dove.
Lost in thought, which I shoudn't do,

It winds me up, I can't get through.

Lost to confort, all kind words,
Lost to advice, it isn't heard.
Lost to those who really care,
All these people, always there.

Lost in me, I need a break,
Lost in wonder, which road to take?
Lost in a place I don't know well,
Where are you now? There's no one to tell.

Lost here, all alone,
Lost apart from the mobile phone.
Lost still, there are no calls.
I'm struggling alone, to break these walls.

Lost in mind, lost in soul,
Lost in memories, they are just a hole.
Lost family, lost mate,
Gone now, yet I'm full of hate.

Lost in a straight world, and I'm gay,
Lost now, for what to say,
Lost in boredom, think I'll leave.
There's a lot in life I need to achieve.

(Dan Brown)